Pain

I found this poem on another blog a few weeks ago and it really depicts much of my thought

" Pain stated so long. I said to him today, 'I will not have you with me anymore.'
I stamped my foot and said, 'Be on your way,'
and paused there, startled at the look he wore.
'I who have been your friend,' he said to me. 'I who have been your teacher - all you know of understanding, love, of sympathy, and patience,
I have taught you. Shall I go?'
He spoke the truth, this strange unwelcome guest;
I watched him leave, and knew that he was wise.
He left a heart grown tender, he left a far, clear vision in my eyes.
I dried my tears, and lifted up a song -
even for one who'd tortured me so long."

-Spencer W. Kimball

I wish I could give the world my perspective without the heartache that I feel.

Now for my joy journal
1) bike rides with our girls. Today we joined the activity girls and went for a little ride. The weather was perfect
2) Zumba- so fun
3) visiting teachers who brighten my day and... I was informed that someone is actually reading this blog
4) china town massage...enough said
5) the knowledge that I WILL be the best wife ever when we are reunited! I have learned so much and I'm grateful for that.