Grief

Last night the flood gates were opened. Afterwards for a split second I thought "uuugggg I wish I could control these tears more" but then I remembered that Rob deserves my grief. He was an amazing man on this earth and is an amazing missionary in heaven. He certainly deserves all of my grief. The pain is almost unbearable at times. But he is certainly worth it.
Joy journal
1) Easter with the Baer family. Cute kids and their mustaches
2) finding a letter written to me from Rob in one of my darkest hours written in 2001 when he was on a adventure in Africa
3) finding a picture of Rob and Lindsay dancing at her wedding. Maybe 2002???
4) planning a trip to Disney in the near future
5) looking forward to eternity